Once I had a better beat, I needed to have an even better one. And somewhere in that climbing, I lost sight of, sort of, my moral and ethical underpinnings.

I am making amends and seeking forgiveness. My only hope is that some good can come out of my situation.

One of my weaknesses happens to be lying, and I could tell you that I'm never going to lie again in my life, but that would be a lie.

You know I am done lying. Obscuring the truth is no longer something I have any interest in doing. I want it all to come out. The good, the bad, the ugly.

I am immensely contrite. And I'm sorry for the damage I've done.

I believe my own demons would have caught up with me regardless of my race and regardless of whether I worked at 'The Times.'

I don't know how one would define an affirmative-action hire. I ultimately do not know what role race played in my hiring.

I feel like I delivered a blow, an unfortunate blow to a profession that not only did I personally love doing but that I value for society.

I fooled some of the most brilliant people in journalism.

I seek to be authentic and engaging, using my own experiences, being as vulnerable as I ask my clients to be, to enhance the process.

I used to walk around saying that I'm just another black man without a college degree.

If they're all so brilliant and I'm such an affirmative-action hire, how come they didn't catch me?

It's hard to say what role race really played in my case.

It's very painful to have something that's not true written about you.

Racism built me into a person that was set up to be self-destructive.

Some people it seems to me would like for me to crawl in a hole and disappear forever. That's just not in my nature.

Well the first thing I'd say is that I'm not sure exactly what I'm supposed to do to show my remorse other than to say that I'm remorseful.

When we report stories, we don't just want to talk to people who did the right thing. We want to talk to people who did the wrong thing.

You face racism in small and large ways.

I have lived a life that has been beautiful and painful at some moments. But I am convinced others can learn how to control a certain kind of rage that bubbles up in many Americans, particularly, but not limited to, women, blacks, and other minorities.