They have - they do still hit me occasionally, and it's an overwhelming grief for what - even though my life is so good now, even including going through treatment for cancer, my life is incredible.

And yet, I suppose you mourn the loss or the death of what you thought your life was, even if you find your life is better after. You mourn the future that you thought you'd planned.

And so I was very grateful that I didn't do the British stiff upper lip, but I went straight to a therapist. And she was wonderful and helpful, and I went for about two years.

And I would urge all women to have that regular mammogram.

And maybe that's being the third child, although my entire family are very resilient - very, very resilient.

But I'm looking at life, and I'm putting nothing off.

God always has another custard pie up his sleeve.

I don't know how I dealt with it. I went to a shrink.

I don't put off any time with my grandchildren. I don't put off a thing.

I don't want marriage. You know why? Because I did that. I did it for 32 years.

I don't want to marry again. I did that.

I find love from time to time.

I'm also doing constant book readings, movies. You name it, I'm doing it.

Well, right now, technically, I have no breast cancer.

And I also am very nervous about implants. You know, I'm just nervous about all that. So I could still do it. I could think about it. But I needed to adapt to myself.

And I really also wanted to have the full-body scans to learn if it was anywhere else - and it wasn't - before I told them. So I didn't tell them, until for a week, and then I told them.

As an actor, particularly because I'm - I would call myself a character actor. I change my look, my physical appearance and my body, my hair color, my whatever all the time for a role.

But I don't want anybody to say have the right to say well if you bloody Brits don't like it go home. And they have the right to say that if you haven't become a citizen.

He had Parkinson's disease for about, I'd say diagnosed for about 11 of the last years of his life. And treatment was not as good as it is now, of course. We're still going along and he died in '85 and he was 77.

I believe I have lots of time. I have to believe that, that it won't come back, and that that's why I'm in good hands. But I also do live my life by putting nothing off.